Lately I have been feeling decidedly unable.
My legs have been feeling weak and wobbly. My ears have been hindering my social life and my eyes are seriously contributing to the black hole that is my apartment.
So, it was no wonder that I was feeling very nervous about doing the training for my abseil.
I know I say I am nervous before I do anything “exciting,” but considering the disappointment I felt when I had to be helped to the bottom of the QV1 building last year, and my aforementioned wobbliness, I really didn’t think I would cope.
The training takes place at a quarry where the scariest thing for me was not the actual abseiling down the rock face but walking the path to get there.
There are so many rocks and trees to trip on, it’s a miracle I did not break anything.
I don’t think this has anything to do with me though. Possibly it was the fact that I was being held up by the back of my harness and thus being moved around like a marionette that did it. I am certainly not complaining either.
Cecily was absolutely no help at all. I really need to get myself an off-road walking frame.
While everyone else had to trudge up the mountain I was chauffeur driven up in the Ute. This was no picnic mind you, the ride was so bumpy that I bopped my head on the roof of the cabin at least twice. Luckily, I was already wearing my helmet.
Thank goodness I only had to “walk” along the ledge at the top.
I really love working with Urban Descent. They don’t presume to know the best way for me to do things, they ask me. They probably would even have let me go by myself if I wanted. Yeah, like that was going to happen!
In the end, I did three abseils. A 20 metre, a 30 metre and another 30 metre where I had to lower myself with my arms by going down a rope instead of walking down the rock face.
The idea of this freaked me out. I was sure my arms were not up to the challenge. But they were, and so were my legs. Damion couldn’t help saying “I told you so!”
I was amazed and in such a good mood that it hardly even bothered me that I heard someone say, “you’re such an inspiration” as I went over the edge. I was doing what everyone else was doing, and I had help.
There was a lady there who is terrified of heights but she was doing it. I’d say that is far more inspirational, especially when you consider that I’m only doing it for the attention! LOL
It is so annoying that I get so much credit for being disabled. It’s embarrassing and to be honest very discouraging.
I had learnt last year that a successful training session did not guarantee success on the day. Even though they tell you that abseiling a building will be easier. So, I’m still a bit nervous.
I needed to do it again this year. My ego won’t be beaten by a mere 160 metres. However, after this I think I’ll hang up my harness.
If it doesn’t rain I might be ok and, at least I get to wear real clothes this year.
Wish me luck!